I walked across an empty land
a desert
a space out of nowhere
I yearn for water
Please, some water
and You granted my wish; I saw a pool ahead
How life had deceived me
given me expectations that I should never have
It is mirage
tricking me into believe there is hope somewhere.
I thought life was good
I thought life treated me well
How you brought me to my knees.
Failed terribly in the arms of fate.
No.
No, there is no fate.
It lies in my hands.
But why did i make the decision
A decision I can't foresee the consequences
Bad judgment, yes.
Bad timing. Bad luck.
Why did i leave for the desert
My head is spinning
I don't know why i left
I just did.
Life just made me.
I look around for hope
Life had disappointed me again.
Now i have no water
no company
no soul.
It's bare.
I'm stranded in nowhere.
Lost in point of no return.
Wait, wait.
There's something ahead.
No. No!
I should've known.
Another mirage:
a stranded one.
Waiting, yes,
ReplyDeleteI've been waiting.
The night has been long.
Oh why has I not got a clock.
Staring, yes,
the stars are spinning.
The night is just so cold.
Oh dawn why aren't you here yet.
Crowing, yes,
I heard the crowing!
The sun is waking!
And the elephant is blinking!
Typing, yes,
I'm typing,
the blog is updated at last!
Ah the wait was not in vain!
P.S. Are these just random thoughts or you are really feeling this way or it's some real feeling plus some random thoughts?
Rong!!! u tell me how can i not fall in love with ur writing!!! u r insane now im sure!! haha. ehh seriously. good! i like ur repetition of 'yes'. sets a good tone to the whole thing! bravo rong!
ReplyDeleteits actually 90% real feeling + 10% exaggeration. hahaha. so its real feeling plus random i guess? :D
Haha Ra mine was just crapping. I might be insane though. ;)
ReplyDeleteWell maybe it's all part a stage of life that we have to go through. Maybe we can only find ourselves through self-questioning and self-doubting. Maybe if you persevere through to the oasis, the reason that once led you to make that decision will be clear again.
Then again, life is about a lot of things. Wherever that decision brings you, it's a journey well taken as long as you've learnt from it and grown from it. That's just my humble opinion though.
rong.. but, no matter how long i persevere, i still don't see the positive side of my decision. sigh. life is.. sigh. pessimist, no? i'll get over it. > <
ReplyDeleteure right in the sense that we learned from life experiences and grown from it. but when the decision bears too much consequences? bad luck, really. but on the other side, luck will turn around and help make things rite? really hope so.
tq very much rong!!!! i hope this journey wont make me go insane. hahaa.
insanity! i rmb our topic previously. perhaps i've got to lose some to keep me going. :P
Ra maybe you can just focus on all the good things in your life and be grateful for them? Don't get me wrong though, I'm not saying that you are not grateful. It's just that normally people (including me ;)) don't go for the extra effort to spare some time everyday and give thanks to all the good things in life. Have you ever read a book called 'The Secret' by Rhonda Byrne? It was pretty hot on the market few years back. She has now come out with another book called 'The Power'. Anyway, the book talks on the law of attraction. The law of attraction is about how our minds can actually control what happens in our lives. Every thought that you have send a message to the universe, and the universe in turn give you what that's asked, whether you are aware of it or not. So if you focus on all the negative things, you're gonna attract more negativities in your life, and the other way round. So focus on the good thing to attract more of it. A very nice book, and pretty convincing. If you're interested you can get it from me. =)
ReplyDeleteYes The Secret i heard abt it! Even some local celebs recommend it. haha. so it actually talks abt the law of attraction? i tot that was another bk titled The Law of Attraction or smtg? Well i kinda think it doesn't make sense. I rmb there is an experiment in USA. Authorities want to try out this theory. Its abt the increasing crime rates in the country. They found a time and date and to call out to as many citizens as possible to pray and focus that crime rates are reduced. Then later on when they counted the percentage or smtg, they found out the crime rates did decrease! then mum said, of course it decreases, more ppl pray means there r less ppl doing the crimes. hahaha that makes sense to me. haha. but i can give it a try though, mite get convinced.. i'd borrow fr u when we meet? haha
ReplyDeleterong really thanks for the support!!! muaksss
Haha your mom is funny. Yea definitely. Just remind me again before we meet!
ReplyDeletehahahaha. okies rong!!
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